I grew up with an abusive alcoholic father. He always made me feel horrible about myself. He constantly told me that i wasnt good enough. It did not take me long to start believing him. My self esteem has really plummeted, and i keep trying to make myself happy, but its hard. Then my brother left when he was 16, because he went down the same path as my father. My two male figures left me for drugs an alcohol, and i always think of things i could have done to make it better.
i keep finding myself push people away from me(especially boys i like) and i end up regretting it, but i cant help myself. I feel like if i get to close to them, they will leave. I really like this guy, but i dont know what to do. Im scared to move forward, so should i take the risk?
i keep finding myself push people away from me(especially boys i like) and i end up regretting it, but i cant help myself. I feel like if i get to close to them, they will leave. I really like this guy, but i dont know what to do. Im scared to move forward, so should i take the risk?
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