Alright it's me again.
So I started school about a week ago.
Holy shit I hate this place already.
Not only does it feel long as hell, my parents are already buckling down and taking away my privileges. No joke I feel like I'm fucking gasping for air in a container full of Carbon Monoxide and I'm barely a week in. I hate it. There's nothing worse. My mom said it'd be a "great year". It certainly doesn't fucking feel like it. I'm legit having suicidal thoughts to get the pain away and I know I'm weak. I know this'll only hurt but it feels so appealing. I already missed quite a bit and I'm just ready. There's nothing much keeping me alive at this point. My parents always say when I am punished, they say it's not. I know they're lying just to make me feel better. They've been doing that and I hate it. They almost forced me to sign up for band, something in my soul which was killed in 6th grade. They also so desperately want me to join a club to get off the computer, something they pretty much think is their mortal enemy.
There's more I could say but it'd take up the entire page.
So I started school about a week ago.
Holy shit I hate this place already.
Not only does it feel long as hell, my parents are already buckling down and taking away my privileges. No joke I feel like I'm fucking gasping for air in a container full of Carbon Monoxide and I'm barely a week in. I hate it. There's nothing worse. My mom said it'd be a "great year". It certainly doesn't fucking feel like it. I'm legit having suicidal thoughts to get the pain away and I know I'm weak. I know this'll only hurt but it feels so appealing. I already missed quite a bit and I'm just ready. There's nothing much keeping me alive at this point. My parents always say when I am punished, they say it's not. I know they're lying just to make me feel better. They've been doing that and I hate it. They almost forced me to sign up for band, something in my soul which was killed in 6th grade. They also so desperately want me to join a club to get off the computer, something they pretty much think is their mortal enemy.
There's more I could say but it'd take up the entire page.
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