I think about suicide everyday. I think about how I would kill myself, when, where, and also the effect of it. People say that suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem, but what if my problem isn't temporary? I have different types of anxiety and this makes it extremely difficulty to do simply things. For instance, it is very difficult for me to open the door if someone rings the doorbell, talk to new people, visit new places by myself, or go up to a cashier to pay for something. If can't do these little, stupid things, how am I supposed to live like this?
When I think about the future it actually terrifies me. I can't imagine myself driving a car or having a job or buying a home or having a family. I feel like there is no future for me.
I only have about 4 friends but I feel like only 1(and a half) of them actually care about me. I love my family but they have problems of their own too.
I'm really lost and I can't seem to find my way out.
When I think about the future it actually terrifies me. I can't imagine myself driving a car or having a job or buying a home or having a family. I feel like there is no future for me.
I only have about 4 friends but I feel like only 1(and a half) of them actually care about me. I love my family but they have problems of their own too.
I'm really lost and I can't seem to find my way out.
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