A few days ago in dance, my teacher asked to talk to me privately. She talked to me about confidence and how I shouldn't let people intimidate me. That day I was really stressed out over multiple things and I honestly just wanted to burst into tears at that moment.
However, the confidence thing is not what I am worried about though. What makes me worried is that I was litterally on the verge of a mental break down but I kept my cool for another 2 hours straight of class. When she was talking to me I just told myself that what I'm feeling doesn't matter right now and I can cry later. I do this very often and I have not cried in front of anyone in about 4 years. I just wait for the situation to end that makes me feel like bursting into tears and then when I'm alone I break down.
Usually I like to keep my feelings to myself, but that day I wanted to tell her what I was feeling but I just held it in. This annoys me about myself and I feel it holds me back. I wish I could just live in the moment and cry when I really needed to so that it's not in the back of my head forever.
However, the confidence thing is not what I am worried about though. What makes me worried is that I was litterally on the verge of a mental break down but I kept my cool for another 2 hours straight of class. When she was talking to me I just told myself that what I'm feeling doesn't matter right now and I can cry later. I do this very often and I have not cried in front of anyone in about 4 years. I just wait for the situation to end that makes me feel like bursting into tears and then when I'm alone I break down.
Usually I like to keep my feelings to myself, but that day I wanted to tell her what I was feeling but I just held it in. This annoys me about myself and I feel it holds me back. I wish I could just live in the moment and cry when I really needed to so that it's not in the back of my head forever.
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