So over the past like 3 years I have had really bad depression and anxiety (I'm 16 and a girl). I never told my parents or anyone because I didn't want people to think i wanted attention. Ive finally started to come out of my shell a little bit. I realized most of my problem was because I started not to trust people with anything and I just started to hate people and didn't want to have friends over because I thought all of them were ganging up on me and hated me. I have basically ruined my social life and I moved to a new school so I can't just hang out with them whenever. I really regret moving even though it wasn't my say. I always want to invite someone over but I feel like they won't want to hang out with me. And this is exactly my problem. I use my bad past experiences and automatically think that it will happen again. Then if they do say yes, they can come over. I get really bad anxiety and I feel like I am being boring because I am scared to say something. I dont have many people over now. How do i stop thinking about the past and just forget and be myself while I'm hanging out with someone?
Another problem is, I am getting more confident and dont think as much as I used to about the little things i did wrong. Now i actually want friends over but no one really hangs out with me anymore. I feel really lonely and its kind of embarrassing because everyone is out doing stuff this summer and I have literally been sitting at home on my computer doing nothing. I want to have fun with my friends again and hang out with people. Like i want to have 4 day sleepovers with one person like when i was 12. Now whenever I have a sleepover with someone (which happens like 2 times a month) they or I always leave in the mornings and then they go hang out with another friend. I want to be the fun friend like i used to be
Another problem is, I am getting more confident and dont think as much as I used to about the little things i did wrong. Now i actually want friends over but no one really hangs out with me anymore. I feel really lonely and its kind of embarrassing because everyone is out doing stuff this summer and I have literally been sitting at home on my computer doing nothing. I want to have fun with my friends again and hang out with people. Like i want to have 4 day sleepovers with one person like when i was 12. Now whenever I have a sleepover with someone (which happens like 2 times a month) they or I always leave in the mornings and then they go hang out with another friend. I want to be the fun friend like i used to be
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