I don't have much to live for. My life consists of my three "friends" who treat me like I don't exist. I do have a best friend that actually cares about me, however, she lives in a different state and I rarely get to see her. I feel like the three friends don't really care about me because don't you think if they cared they would talk to me and want to hang out and do what friends do? Well, they don't. They only care about each other. And better yet, one of the three friends (let's call him J), is dating the other friend (let's call her B), and also B and (let's call her E) are better friends than I am with B. I have other friends I guess but I think it's better to call them 'school friends' because we only talk at school and we don't hangout after or anything.
I'm the back-up friend. People only talk to me when they need someone to talk to, When they need me, they lean on me, then they leave. And I'm so tired of being nice to people and going out of my way to make sure they're okay and happy just to be treated so badly in the end. I'm not anyone's first choice. I'm not anyone's favorite. People may tell me I mean a lot to them and that I'm special to them but I know there's someone they will always choose over me.
I feel invisible. I feel like I'm battling a silent war with no one to fight for me. I'm spending my only teenage years feeling like I want to jump off a cliff while others are having the time of their lives. I don't have anyone to be there for me when I need it most. How am I supposed to live like this?
I'm the back-up friend. People only talk to me when they need someone to talk to, When they need me, they lean on me, then they leave. And I'm so tired of being nice to people and going out of my way to make sure they're okay and happy just to be treated so badly in the end. I'm not anyone's first choice. I'm not anyone's favorite. People may tell me I mean a lot to them and that I'm special to them but I know there's someone they will always choose over me.
I feel invisible. I feel like I'm battling a silent war with no one to fight for me. I'm spending my only teenage years feeling like I want to jump off a cliff while others are having the time of their lives. I don't have anyone to be there for me when I need it most. How am I supposed to live like this?
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