From the outside most people view me as a pretty successful kid. I'm a straight A student, in all honors and AP classes, ranked top three percent in my high school class (just finished junior year), I'm the president of numerous clubs, close with administration and faculty in my school. I even set up an internship with a congressman this summer, because I aspire to work in government. A lot of people are jealous because they think I'm going to be so successful and I only just turned 17. My life sounds pretty awesome right? That couldn't be further from the truth.
My dad has caused such heart wrenching stress for me that I swear I can no longer bear it. No I don't live in a drug abused household. No my father is not an alcoholic. My sort of dysfunctional family is not your average family that shows up on this website, so I doubt you will have any way to help me. My dad is the dictator of the house. He is the boss and there is no getting through to him. He never levels with me. He is socially awkward in public. I ask him to change certain things he does, such as COMPLETELY OBVIOUSLY stalking my friends and me either on Facebook or in person, to the point where all of my friends think I'm a freak, and he refuses and tells me I'm being an ungrateful bi*ch. He verbally abuses me. He is so strange in such aspects that he just doesn't understand. He doesn't know how to act around other people and he refuses to change his frustrating ways.
But that's not even the bad part. The amount of stress my father has put me under with school has driven me to the breaking point. He puts SO much pressure on me academically, I feel like my life is literally coming to an end if I get one B on anything. My teachers are always concerned that I'm such a nervous wreck, and my friends are worried that I haven't socialized in over a year and I've lost twelve pounds because the stress causes me to not eat. I have developed severe acid reflux because of my overbearing stress and my asthma has gotten so bad that I walk around with my oxygen levels so low, I constantly have a headache and I'm always dizzy.
My dad has recently gone back to school to become a social worker, and the irony of the situation makes me want to scream and run away. He thinks he's a super hero because he drives two hours away to help complete strangers with their problems, yet every time I try to sit down and talk to him as his own daughter, he curses me off. Please, I just want to leave this place. Every time I have a happy moment, the next day is filled with more and more misery from my father. He constantly threatens to divorce my mother if she even mutters a difference in opinion in front of me. And I have an older brother who is 22, he supports me a lot but I don't want to put all of my emotional stress on him. He just had open heart surgery a month ago. Sometimes I feel so trapped by my fathers dysfunctionality I just want to end it all. I've tried to get him to go to counseling with us as a family, but he refuses because he doesn't see that he is doing anything wrong. After all, he's a social worker. Please help, it's too much.
My dad has caused such heart wrenching stress for me that I swear I can no longer bear it. No I don't live in a drug abused household. No my father is not an alcoholic. My sort of dysfunctional family is not your average family that shows up on this website, so I doubt you will have any way to help me. My dad is the dictator of the house. He is the boss and there is no getting through to him. He never levels with me. He is socially awkward in public. I ask him to change certain things he does, such as COMPLETELY OBVIOUSLY stalking my friends and me either on Facebook or in person, to the point where all of my friends think I'm a freak, and he refuses and tells me I'm being an ungrateful bi*ch. He verbally abuses me. He is so strange in such aspects that he just doesn't understand. He doesn't know how to act around other people and he refuses to change his frustrating ways.
But that's not even the bad part. The amount of stress my father has put me under with school has driven me to the breaking point. He puts SO much pressure on me academically, I feel like my life is literally coming to an end if I get one B on anything. My teachers are always concerned that I'm such a nervous wreck, and my friends are worried that I haven't socialized in over a year and I've lost twelve pounds because the stress causes me to not eat. I have developed severe acid reflux because of my overbearing stress and my asthma has gotten so bad that I walk around with my oxygen levels so low, I constantly have a headache and I'm always dizzy.
My dad has recently gone back to school to become a social worker, and the irony of the situation makes me want to scream and run away. He thinks he's a super hero because he drives two hours away to help complete strangers with their problems, yet every time I try to sit down and talk to him as his own daughter, he curses me off. Please, I just want to leave this place. Every time I have a happy moment, the next day is filled with more and more misery from my father. He constantly threatens to divorce my mother if she even mutters a difference in opinion in front of me. And I have an older brother who is 22, he supports me a lot but I don't want to put all of my emotional stress on him. He just had open heart surgery a month ago. Sometimes I feel so trapped by my fathers dysfunctionality I just want to end it all. I've tried to get him to go to counseling with us as a family, but he refuses because he doesn't see that he is doing anything wrong. After all, he's a social worker. Please help, it's too much.
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