In the past (like a year or 2 ago) I used to cut myself due to all the stress of the things that were happening but after a while I started my friends found out and had a chat with me about it and after things seemed like things were getting better.
That was until a few months ago but recently I was told my condition won't be getting any better and the pain keeps getting worse and worse so much so that I cant handle it anymore if feels like I'm being ripped apart with how sore and painful it is and I started to cut myself agian because when I do my mind gets took of all the other pain and I focus on the cut instead of everything else and it seems to help me forget the fact I am in so much pain that I want to just end everything there and then and all my family issues even if it's for a short while.
I just want to know is it bad I do this? I feel guilty for doing for what I put my friends through last time and I dont want them to go through it agian but if it takes my mind of the other stuff is it bad? Am I just being selfish for choosing my own relief over their feelings? Or is it ok?
That was until a few months ago but recently I was told my condition won't be getting any better and the pain keeps getting worse and worse so much so that I cant handle it anymore if feels like I'm being ripped apart with how sore and painful it is and I started to cut myself agian because when I do my mind gets took of all the other pain and I focus on the cut instead of everything else and it seems to help me forget the fact I am in so much pain that I want to just end everything there and then and all my family issues even if it's for a short while.
I just want to know is it bad I do this? I feel guilty for doing for what I put my friends through last time and I dont want them to go through it agian but if it takes my mind of the other stuff is it bad? Am I just being selfish for choosing my own relief over their feelings? Or is it ok?
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