Dear Second floor,
Okay, so about a year and a half ago I had an aunt move back from Florida, we'll call her Marjorie. She had just been divorced so she came back to New Jersey and decided to move in with my grandmother. But ever since she moved back to New Jersey, our family became, well we definitely weren't very enthusiastic about seeing each other. At first I kind of tuned it out, at the time I had other issues to worry about with school and depression, and I figured it was just since she had been divorced, but around March last year all hell broke loose. My grandmother had ended up in the hospital, and my mother and two aunts had to take turns visiting the hospital. I never had a father so whenever my mom left I'd be stuck with one of my aunts. Marjorie was usually who my mother picked to watch me. All I ever really heard from her was some complaint about someone else in the family, and what they were fighting over when she was watching me. My other aunt (we'll call her laura) was fine to be around, but my mother isn't comfortable leaving me with her since she has 3 kids and I'm always in fights with the youngest, and the older ones ignore me. After about three weeks of this my grandmother was finally allowed to go home, but she'd be dependent on Marjorie. Well, Marjorie didn't like that and always had to be talking to someone about how unfair it is that she has to take care of my grandmother by herself even though Laura and my mom both have their own kids to take care of, so that went on until my mother finally started yelling at Marjorie when she came over. That kind of started this anger between all the adults, and when they think the kids aren't around they scream at each other until someone comes downstairs. With that every time I'm left with my aunt Marjorie she always tells me about how Laura was being a B****, or my mother not caring about grandma. Then about four months ago my mother ended up in the hospital for about a week and Marjorie was left in charge to take care of me. She acted like mom was fine and it was like she just dropped my off to stop being a mother for a while even though it was clear she couldn't even stand up, so I went through more of that. Mom was okay once she got out of the hospital again for a while, but something apparently happened so she's probably going to be at the hospital a lot more. So I'm probably just going to be with Marjorie. I don't know if they think I'm blind deaf and dumb, and think I'm oblivious to the family problems, or if they just don't care that I know they barely tolerate each other. Sorry, I didn't mean to ramble about this. It's just this whole thing with nobody likes each other and they only really talk because they have to trade me off between Marjorie and my mother. That is 95 percent of what they talk about when they're not fighting. Sometimes I wonder if it'd be easier if they didn't have me around to trade off, and I don't like listening to the arguments and sometimes I just want to die and I don't know if it would've made it easier for them to stand each other if I wasn't in the way.
Okay, so about a year and a half ago I had an aunt move back from Florida, we'll call her Marjorie. She had just been divorced so she came back to New Jersey and decided to move in with my grandmother. But ever since she moved back to New Jersey, our family became, well we definitely weren't very enthusiastic about seeing each other. At first I kind of tuned it out, at the time I had other issues to worry about with school and depression, and I figured it was just since she had been divorced, but around March last year all hell broke loose. My grandmother had ended up in the hospital, and my mother and two aunts had to take turns visiting the hospital. I never had a father so whenever my mom left I'd be stuck with one of my aunts. Marjorie was usually who my mother picked to watch me. All I ever really heard from her was some complaint about someone else in the family, and what they were fighting over when she was watching me. My other aunt (we'll call her laura) was fine to be around, but my mother isn't comfortable leaving me with her since she has 3 kids and I'm always in fights with the youngest, and the older ones ignore me. After about three weeks of this my grandmother was finally allowed to go home, but she'd be dependent on Marjorie. Well, Marjorie didn't like that and always had to be talking to someone about how unfair it is that she has to take care of my grandmother by herself even though Laura and my mom both have their own kids to take care of, so that went on until my mother finally started yelling at Marjorie when she came over. That kind of started this anger between all the adults, and when they think the kids aren't around they scream at each other until someone comes downstairs. With that every time I'm left with my aunt Marjorie she always tells me about how Laura was being a B****, or my mother not caring about grandma. Then about four months ago my mother ended up in the hospital for about a week and Marjorie was left in charge to take care of me. She acted like mom was fine and it was like she just dropped my off to stop being a mother for a while even though it was clear she couldn't even stand up, so I went through more of that. Mom was okay once she got out of the hospital again for a while, but something apparently happened so she's probably going to be at the hospital a lot more. So I'm probably just going to be with Marjorie. I don't know if they think I'm blind deaf and dumb, and think I'm oblivious to the family problems, or if they just don't care that I know they barely tolerate each other. Sorry, I didn't mean to ramble about this. It's just this whole thing with nobody likes each other and they only really talk because they have to trade me off between Marjorie and my mother. That is 95 percent of what they talk about when they're not fighting. Sometimes I wonder if it'd be easier if they didn't have me around to trade off, and I don't like listening to the arguments and sometimes I just want to die and I don't know if it would've made it easier for them to stand each other if I wasn't in the way.
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