Please help me!! :,'(( I am crying so much right now try to understand me. No I have no one, like nnot even my parents I can talk to... and that is another thing to cry about. It is so extreme, I cant even put it into words. Words cant describe anything. I feel unbearable pain. I dont see good things coming, all I am is mistreated, misunderstood. People hate me for no reason, so I take it out all in myself. I wanted 8th grade to be the best year where I make friends, and now it is the end of the year and I realized I haven't accomplished anything!!!! This is year was going to be the best, but I ruined it. I cant study or do work because I feel stupid.I keep remember ing childhood bullying. It is really easy to trigger the pain because the people around me are the same. Now I am mostly worried about "fake smiling" cuz I dont want people or my parents to know anything. How can I pretend to be smiley when I wanna die? How can I "act" happy when im not? Please dont put the suicide number cuz I wont go far. And then, I have to leave my favorite teacher!! She had my sister when I moved here, therefore she knows a lot about her struggles, and she supports me and knows my struggles too. Iam afraid I wont get a teacher like her. But My sister was closer to her, and im jealous because its the end of the year anyways, and i am not close to the teacher.my sister says that there are no teachers like her. And she makes me feel connected and safe. I have fake friends, and I am a loner. I am humorous when I am comfortable, but its hard to be in my school, and its late because I already established the goody quiet shy image! And it is a bad thing for many reasons! And its too late for change. And I planned to be a different person this year, but no... I still "appear" quiet. Thats why mean girls say I have no friends. I feel used and replaced. I feel guilty.
Help me please.
Help me please.
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