The other day in school I met with my counselor to set my classes for next year and he started asking me small talk questions like what my interests are and if I do any activities/sports/clubs. I didn't really know what to tell him for what my interests are and I don't do any activities because I have a problem with making decisions and social anxiety (but I didn't tell him that). He then went and told me that I should join more clubs and stuff so when people look at my college resume they can see that I do more than just do work for school which made me feel like I was sinking in a pool of terror. I think he picked up on how I was feeling and told me that everything we talk about remains confidential and then proceeded to ask me more personal questions like if these things made me feel anxious. I said yes and then he suggested that I should make a plan to join a club to meet new people. I honestly just felt like breaking down and crying in that room while we were talking but I just nodded along to the things he was saying.
I know I need help with dealing with how I feel but every time I have an opportunity to do so, I can't get the words out. The future scares me more than anything and I don't know if I will be able to continue through high school feeling like this.
I know I need help with dealing with how I feel but every time I have an opportunity to do so, I can't get the words out. The future scares me more than anything and I don't know if I will be able to continue through high school feeling like this.
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