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Feeling like I can't go on anymore
So my 5 year old little brother was admitted into a hospital for anger issues. We didn't get home afterwards until 1 AM. I didn't go to sleep, I cried the entire time. Yes, I did attempt to use coping skills, but it was basically useless.
It was no help that I was already feeling like fecal matter because the previous morning my mother had given me a panic attack when she had woken me up screaming. I started crying because I got scared. She told me to shut up and that she was going to "get rid of" my 7 week old kitten Kodi, who she knows I love dearly. I ended up breaking down. She said, "Oh, might as well throw him away since you don't want to be here anyways, right?" (My father is currently trying to get full custody of me) I grabbed all my things and waited outside in the rain for over an hour.
I go to an Intensive Outpatient (IOP) program, and the anxiety was getting to me so much, I had another mental break down in front of everyone there. I went home that day and was locked out of the house in the cold for over 30 minutes, then my sister let me inside and I received no apology whatsoever from my mother.
Now it is 1 in the morning and I have not slept yet, I haven't eaten in at least a day because of a strong lack of motivation and I threw up less than an hour ago. I need help.
It was no help that I was already feeling like fecal matter because the previous morning my mother had given me a panic attack when she had woken me up screaming. I started crying because I got scared. She told me to shut up and that she was going to "get rid of" my 7 week old kitten Kodi, who she knows I love dearly. I ended up breaking down. She said, "Oh, might as well throw him away since you don't want to be here anyways, right?" (My father is currently trying to get full custody of me) I grabbed all my things and waited outside in the rain for over an hour.
I go to an Intensive Outpatient (IOP) program, and the anxiety was getting to me so much, I had another mental break down in front of everyone there. I went home that day and was locked out of the house in the cold for over 30 minutes, then my sister let me inside and I received no apology whatsoever from my mother.
Now it is 1 in the morning and I have not slept yet, I haven't eaten in at least a day because of a strong lack of motivation and I threw up less than an hour ago. I need help.
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