I am freaking out right now because of school is starting after tomorow and here's are the following reasonS:
1) I always want to do more than I am able to, but I cant always reach up to my own expectation which then leads to fear of failure, and then depression. For example, I want to pay to be in ap classes as in college credits, but I cant because I am not sure I will meet every single prerequisite test expectation just one shot, yet I feel like I am running out of time
2) I am a creative kid with music and theatre passion, and the competition in highschool is unbelievably competitive, and I feel the need to be better than everyone and really stand out and really advance and gain recognition, but I have no idea how to do so. SOmetimes I feel like I am really advanced than most kids, it just doesnt show because i am shy and quiet and I dont know how to come out of my shell and say "thats what I can do". So its like not fair, but in a way it is
3) I get nervous tics and I cant stop it. I am nervous of being nervious and shaking like an idiot. I do think I need to be on medication, but to the time I actually visit and therapist and see what tthey think, I would already have started school and already suffering from it and I will start off with bad impression
4) I want to be recongnized or I dream of being called down to the office for a r3ecognition for an accomplishment
5) I am really sad because last year I loved school because I know the teacher that was literally the reason I was living was there, and now she's gone.... NO one can fill her shoes, its a fact
1) I always want to do more than I am able to, but I cant always reach up to my own expectation which then leads to fear of failure, and then depression. For example, I want to pay to be in ap classes as in college credits, but I cant because I am not sure I will meet every single prerequisite test expectation just one shot, yet I feel like I am running out of time
2) I am a creative kid with music and theatre passion, and the competition in highschool is unbelievably competitive, and I feel the need to be better than everyone and really stand out and really advance and gain recognition, but I have no idea how to do so. SOmetimes I feel like I am really advanced than most kids, it just doesnt show because i am shy and quiet and I dont know how to come out of my shell and say "thats what I can do". So its like not fair, but in a way it is
3) I get nervous tics and I cant stop it. I am nervous of being nervious and shaking like an idiot. I do think I need to be on medication, but to the time I actually visit and therapist and see what tthey think, I would already have started school and already suffering from it and I will start off with bad impression
4) I want to be recongnized or I dream of being called down to the office for a r3ecognition for an accomplishment
5) I am really sad because last year I loved school because I know the teacher that was literally the reason I was living was there, and now she's gone.... NO one can fill her shoes, its a fact
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