answer quick please!!!!!

[Unregistered]

this is the only place where I can truly speak my mind. this is a topic that greatly affects me. it bothers me a lot how easy it is to get access to pornography these days . I was just a kid when i came across it on youtube and i was watching it a lot. and now its depressing me a lot. i am severely depressed and do not know what to do. i always feel so ashamed of myself for watching it. its killing me. it really is. i hate myself so much for it and I've never been so upset with myself my whole life. i hate myself for admitting that i did watch it. i really really really hate it. a lot. i can't say it enough. its really hurting me. if my family or friends found out, they would hate me forever. please help me.

[2NDFLOOR]

It sounds like you may have an unhealthy addiction to pornography especially if you are becoming depressed and hating yourself for it. You are right, it is very easy to get. You just need help on being stronger with fighting your urges and building resistance. You should seek the help of a counselor. In the meantime, you need to develop a new habit as a replacement to this one. For example, when you get the urge to watch porn redirect that urge with a different activity. That could be reading, exercising, writing in a journal, watching tv, playing a game, calling/texting a friend, etc. You need to find an activity that you enjoy to keep your mind and body busy and also something that you have ready to go so you can immediately and quickly redirect yourself to it once the urge comes. If you would like to talk about this further please give us a call at the 2NDFLOOR Youth Helpline. We are here 24/7 at 888-222-2228. You can also text us at this number daily between 4pm and 8pm. Good luck!

[Unregistered]

yeah this is also the reason why i started to self harm. because i hate myself for it. and i want to change. i believe that i can change, i just need to be able to build self control. is this a really bad thing? that i watched it?

[2NDFLOOR]

The important thing is that you realize that this unhealthy for you and you want to get help! It is important to find things that you enjoy other than pornography and do that in place of watching it online. Remember you can call our helpline to discuss better alternatives. Our support counselors are available 24/7 at (888)-222-2228.