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Hello, my name is Sydney. I am a 13 year old girl who has anxiety, depression, OCD, paranoia, you name it.
As a child my father was always yelling at me, calling me worthless and stupid. He's threatened to hurt me before but never has in a manner that would be considered abuse, last July he moved out and my life seemed to be getting better. I have a toxic mother coincidentally. After my dad left she became the head of the house. She calls me disgusting. Unlike my dad, she has hit me on my face with the back of her hand a few times. Every time she does it she says it's my fault. Until recently I thought that parental behavior was normal but with more friends I am starting to realize that behavior is very unusual? Is this common? Should I worry? My mom tells me if I tell anyone about what she says, she'll kick me out and I'll be homeless. She tells me Difus will take me and abuse me. What should I do? I believe my mom has bi polar disorder, it's very obvious, I asked my dad and he said she does have it. When I ask my mom she screams at me and tells me I don't know what I'm talking about. My mom only has food for 4 days out of the 5 in a school week for me to bring to lunch, she gives my sister double the food, both of my parents favor my sister, buy her clothes, give her things, never yell at her, or call her names. When I was little my sister use to harshly beat me by punching me in the face, pushing me down the steps or kicking me in the stomach and the behavior was never stopped by my parents. Due to the way I was brought up I can't decide if my mom is actually being emotionally/physically abusive or if I'm just exaggerating it. A few months ago in school I had a panic attack that resulted to me having to go to the hospital because I was hyperventilating so hard no oxygen was reaching my other extremities. My mom was mad at me for having the panic attack and told me the reason it happened was because I wanted to get attention.
Please help. What should I do? Should I continue leaving the situation alone or should I contact someone for help?
I am truly ashamed to talk about this. I feel very pathetic and I'm angry at myself for being so weak.
Please give me advice.
As a child my father was always yelling at me, calling me worthless and stupid. He's threatened to hurt me before but never has in a manner that would be considered abuse, last July he moved out and my life seemed to be getting better. I have a toxic mother coincidentally. After my dad left she became the head of the house. She calls me disgusting. Unlike my dad, she has hit me on my face with the back of her hand a few times. Every time she does it she says it's my fault. Until recently I thought that parental behavior was normal but with more friends I am starting to realize that behavior is very unusual? Is this common? Should I worry? My mom tells me if I tell anyone about what she says, she'll kick me out and I'll be homeless. She tells me Difus will take me and abuse me. What should I do? I believe my mom has bi polar disorder, it's very obvious, I asked my dad and he said she does have it. When I ask my mom she screams at me and tells me I don't know what I'm talking about. My mom only has food for 4 days out of the 5 in a school week for me to bring to lunch, she gives my sister double the food, both of my parents favor my sister, buy her clothes, give her things, never yell at her, or call her names. When I was little my sister use to harshly beat me by punching me in the face, pushing me down the steps or kicking me in the stomach and the behavior was never stopped by my parents. Due to the way I was brought up I can't decide if my mom is actually being emotionally/physically abusive or if I'm just exaggerating it. A few months ago in school I had a panic attack that resulted to me having to go to the hospital because I was hyperventilating so hard no oxygen was reaching my other extremities. My mom was mad at me for having the panic attack and told me the reason it happened was because I wanted to get attention.
Please help. What should I do? Should I continue leaving the situation alone or should I contact someone for help?
I am truly ashamed to talk about this. I feel very pathetic and I'm angry at myself for being so weak.
Please give me advice.
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