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I'm grateful for this space, because there's absolutely no way in hell I'm sharing this with any support person in my life, and you'll be able to tell why soon.
I just wanted to get this off my chest.
I started dating this guy, who I thought was 5'10. We've been in daily contact for a month and a lil over. He checked off all my boxes. We went on total 2 dates.
While I regard him as "perfect" in all his attributes, values, and similarities, I am not physically attracted to him.
I know this will sound shallow, but I've societally been labeled as "conventionally attractive", and everyone was always like, "Oh you'll pull a model!"
I was disheartened when I noticed he's not very tall. He's like I think two inches taller than me and I'm 5'3. Height matters to me as well as attraction.
I think he really fell for me and he said I checked all his boxes and with age him 28 and me 23, I think he wants someone to settle down with. He did say he is dating for marriage, which matches my goals. But I'm not physically attracted. I cannot see myself on my wedding day and family pictures being the same height. Appearance matters to me. He doesn't fit what I had in mind regarding how I imagine my significant other to look like.
But given how Ive been feeling, I don't know if I'm comfortable moving forward with our interaction all together. Like there he is falling for me by the minute, and hear I am carrying very cynical, judgement views on his appearance. I don't want to break his heart or waste his time and make him more attached if that's how I'm feeling or been feeling; I think he deserve a woman who's maybe more mature to overlook the height thing.
So maybe I should just pull the bandaid? Or maybe we can remain friends.He wants us to meet at the gym as gym buddies, but I don't know .... Or maybe I don't even have time for this all together and just focus on myself. I want to express my feelings to him, just say I'm not as ready for a relationship like I thought I would be, I of course won't be blunt or honest. But I don't know how to bring it up. I know this is gonna hurt him because he's already in love.
It's my call and I'm just using this space to sort it out. I understand this whole thing sounds superficial, and I won't deny that it is. But it's also reality and standards and preferences, which I know everyone is entitled to, but that doesn't mean it's not judgemental/immature.
I just wanted to get this off my chest.
I started dating this guy, who I thought was 5'10. We've been in daily contact for a month and a lil over. He checked off all my boxes. We went on total 2 dates.
While I regard him as "perfect" in all his attributes, values, and similarities, I am not physically attracted to him.
I know this will sound shallow, but I've societally been labeled as "conventionally attractive", and everyone was always like, "Oh you'll pull a model!"
I was disheartened when I noticed he's not very tall. He's like I think two inches taller than me and I'm 5'3. Height matters to me as well as attraction.
I think he really fell for me and he said I checked all his boxes and with age him 28 and me 23, I think he wants someone to settle down with. He did say he is dating for marriage, which matches my goals. But I'm not physically attracted. I cannot see myself on my wedding day and family pictures being the same height. Appearance matters to me. He doesn't fit what I had in mind regarding how I imagine my significant other to look like.
But given how Ive been feeling, I don't know if I'm comfortable moving forward with our interaction all together. Like there he is falling for me by the minute, and hear I am carrying very cynical, judgement views on his appearance. I don't want to break his heart or waste his time and make him more attached if that's how I'm feeling or been feeling; I think he deserve a woman who's maybe more mature to overlook the height thing.
So maybe I should just pull the bandaid? Or maybe we can remain friends.He wants us to meet at the gym as gym buddies, but I don't know .... Or maybe I don't even have time for this all together and just focus on myself. I want to express my feelings to him, just say I'm not as ready for a relationship like I thought I would be, I of course won't be blunt or honest. But I don't know how to bring it up. I know this is gonna hurt him because he's already in love.
It's my call and I'm just using this space to sort it out. I understand this whole thing sounds superficial, and I won't deny that it is. But it's also reality and standards and preferences, which I know everyone is entitled to, but that doesn't mean it's not judgemental/immature.
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