Hello. This is literally the ONLY place I feel comfortable in disclosing my feelings regarding whatever I'm about to talk about right now.
I'm 19 yr old female virgin, ultra conservative, muslim, and my culture is full of "until marriage" beliefs and mentality. Living in the west is such a struggle where everything is so hypersexualized. I hate sex and I don't get the hype. It's embarrassing, and i am ashamed to have "that body" part.I'm repulsed by the idea of anyone having to see it and well -- you get the point. It in itself overall. I'm ashamed of my femininity, though I am a Cis, straight female and way to girly in fact. It's too kinky, dirty, repulsive and graphic. It makes me feel traumatized although I haven't had any history of sexual abuse. I'm in no way sexually active and wont be for 10 million years, but it distresses me when like in college for example, they do these "sex talks" and I happen to stumble upon them and I happen to be triggered and feel super exposed. I don't know what to do with this. It comes and goes, but today it hit me strongly.
It's wierd to talk about it. I don't know what to do I feel funny.
I'm 19 yr old female virgin, ultra conservative, muslim, and my culture is full of "until marriage" beliefs and mentality. Living in the west is such a struggle where everything is so hypersexualized. I hate sex and I don't get the hype. It's embarrassing, and i am ashamed to have "that body" part.I'm repulsed by the idea of anyone having to see it and well -- you get the point. It in itself overall. I'm ashamed of my femininity, though I am a Cis, straight female and way to girly in fact. It's too kinky, dirty, repulsive and graphic. It makes me feel traumatized although I haven't had any history of sexual abuse. I'm in no way sexually active and wont be for 10 million years, but it distresses me when like in college for example, they do these "sex talks" and I happen to stumble upon them and I happen to be triggered and feel super exposed. I don't know what to do with this. It comes and goes, but today it hit me strongly.
It's wierd to talk about it. I don't know what to do I feel funny.
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