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For a almost a year now, I've struggled with Anorexia. I always hated the way my body looked but I never did anything about it. But it wasn't until 7th grade where I started restricting. I wasn't losing any weight, but the thoughts I had were enough to make me feel awful. I attempted recovery but that only lasted for a couple months. And when I started 8th grade just a couple of months ago, it got really bad. There would be ongoing days where I would skip breakfast and lunch, or fast for 20 or more hours at a time. I am currently eating "normally" to avoid suspicion from my parents. I want to get better but I just can't. The need to be perfect is too strong.
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So when you were finding success for those several months what were you doing? Could you try doing that again? And since you didn't specifically say this, your best hope for long term help is through seeing an eating disorder specialist that could help you with both your eating and body image issues. It's important that you try to work on this now as the longer it goes on without help, the more severe the ED tends to get. You might find some of the tools on this website helpful as well https://www.nationaleatingdisorders.org/help-support. You can call or text us anytime at 888-222-2228. -
Hi, as a recovered ED individual I understand how difficult it may be to fight this constant internal battle with yourself to be “perfect.” For me, I found motivation in my friends and family to get better. I wanted to be healthy to be able to play and go out without getting tired or feeling sick or light headed. But, most importantly, you have to want to change for yourself! Love yourself first!Comment
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Hello, thank you for sharing what you have going on. I am also a recovered ED individual who understands the intensity of the feelings that you are having. One thing that really helped me was creating "bumpers" as I call them. It sounds a little silly but just like when you bowl you can put up bumpers to make sure the bowling ball does not go into the gutter, I made bumpers in my life to keep me on tract to being happy and healthy again. One way that I do this is tell people whats going on. That way family and friends will support you and keep an eye on you to make sure you are moving in the right direction. It may seem scary to tell them but you can do it. The fear is worth the reward because having that awful feeling go away and feeling healthier is great. You got this and your are beautiful just the way you are!Comment
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I admire your desire for recovery and you noticing that there is an issue with eating habits, that's often one of the hardest parts! I might suggest confiding in a trusted adult... a teacher, a parent, guidance counselor, etc. It can be extremely scary to do that, but those are the people that care most about you and would be able to help you. I'd say try to confide in someone who you believe won't judge you or have a strong reaction. They may be able to help you talk to a therapist or other professional who can guide you through recovery.Comment
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