Hi. I am a 17 year old female who is in a pretty cool highschool where the setting is often compared to "college level." I have had new friends come and go every year with maybe an occasional friend who comes back for a few weeks, then distances themself again. My two main best guy friends are really adorable. I was sorta messing around with one of them for awhile, but he turned out to be kind of ignorant and abusive in our "not really a relationship of any kind" friendship. My other guy friend is dating someone I'm not okay with, because her and I have had a bumpy past, and I must admit I'm a bit jealous. Now on to my two closest girl friends, who are polar opposites. They are supportive to me with every decision and are awesome friends and I know I will never lose them.
Now onto the real issue. I have something wrong with me. In my mental status. I have the worst time at night right before bed when everyone else is asleep. I cry for hours, lose more sleep than I should, and end up crying myself to sleep every night. In the day, even after nights like that, I wake up fine. Maybe a little sad until I start talking to the few friends I have, but for the rest of the day I'm fine. I've been to my school counselor many times before I was refferred to a different one, still at school. She said I should speak to my mom.
I can't. I've tried so hard every day but I can't. I'm too happy during the day... My depression is only worsening. I need something to help me. I can't confess, yet I came here for advice. Thank you for listening.
Now onto the real issue. I have something wrong with me. In my mental status. I have the worst time at night right before bed when everyone else is asleep. I cry for hours, lose more sleep than I should, and end up crying myself to sleep every night. In the day, even after nights like that, I wake up fine. Maybe a little sad until I start talking to the few friends I have, but for the rest of the day I'm fine. I've been to my school counselor many times before I was refferred to a different one, still at school. She said I should speak to my mom.
I can't. I've tried so hard every day but I can't. I'm too happy during the day... My depression is only worsening. I need something to help me. I can't confess, yet I came here for advice. Thank you for listening.
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