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Hello. I know this is pretty lame but it triggers deep wound which is why it hurts; I struggle a lot with feeling abandoned, because I went through soo much trauma, and sense of connection has healed me so much that I feel as though if lose it, I'll go back to this really isolated place again.
Anywho, I'm really sensitive. It bothers me so much when former teachers don't accept my request on facebook. HEADS UP: I know you might say that boundaries, etc. it might be that they don't want students for former students in their personal circle, but what's the confusing thing is: THEY HAVE SO MANY OTHER FORMER STUDENTS from the same grade and they seem to be constantly in contact. If they didn't have my friends on there, I woudn't think twice. But they've accepted other peer's request. Like I know these are teachers who above hundreds of other teachers, were the most closest to me and knew me in such meaningful ways. Ya see what's bothering me?
That's why it just makes me question as to why are they let in the circle, but I'm not? When we did have a connection? And even worse, I feel like the fortgot me, and if you're questioning why that matters to me, it's because at some point in my school life as still a school teen, I had to rely on so many of them for support when I was disconnected from the adults in my personal life.
So usually, through facebook, I've been able to remain in contact long after gradauting, and with so many other teachers or mentors, it automically makes me feel connected, to the mentor like relationship we had (within boundaries). I just wanted a consistent contact, like through facebook, because it helped me maintain relationships with former peers, mentors, and even some teachers who (a) felt comfortable and (b) I deeply connected with.
How do I not take this too personal? I'd like to feel a little more calmer reading your response, because my abandonment wounds have been activated the whole week, so I'm not surprised I'm overthinking this after a long time.
Anywho, I'm really sensitive. It bothers me so much when former teachers don't accept my request on facebook. HEADS UP: I know you might say that boundaries, etc. it might be that they don't want students for former students in their personal circle, but what's the confusing thing is: THEY HAVE SO MANY OTHER FORMER STUDENTS from the same grade and they seem to be constantly in contact. If they didn't have my friends on there, I woudn't think twice. But they've accepted other peer's request. Like I know these are teachers who above hundreds of other teachers, were the most closest to me and knew me in such meaningful ways. Ya see what's bothering me?
That's why it just makes me question as to why are they let in the circle, but I'm not? When we did have a connection? And even worse, I feel like the fortgot me, and if you're questioning why that matters to me, it's because at some point in my school life as still a school teen, I had to rely on so many of them for support when I was disconnected from the adults in my personal life.
So usually, through facebook, I've been able to remain in contact long after gradauting, and with so many other teachers or mentors, it automically makes me feel connected, to the mentor like relationship we had (within boundaries). I just wanted a consistent contact, like through facebook, because it helped me maintain relationships with former peers, mentors, and even some teachers who (a) felt comfortable and (b) I deeply connected with.
How do I not take this too personal? I'd like to feel a little more calmer reading your response, because my abandonment wounds have been activated the whole week, so I'm not surprised I'm overthinking this after a long time.
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