I just can't anymore. I'm so done.
So background ... I'm 15 and been having struggles of anxiety and what I believe to be depression (immense sadness, irritation, and so on) I have always been really shy and my parents are being really cautious about COVID so is really affecting me socially.
I get upset or mad really easy. I can usually hide it but when I cant my parents make it a huge deal (like emotions are poison ruining the planet or something) For example, today I couldn't take it anymore and I started crying I stopped pretty quickly but they did not handle it good. They made it a huge deal like I try to cry and ruin the day for them. Also, I recently told them in a letter how I was feeling mentally and they did the oh we are here for you thing but it does not feel like they are. Its straining. I just want things to go back to the way they were before COVID. And i dont know what to do, I want relief mentally but the meditation my parents were suggesting did not work, journaling did some but not enough. I feel that I need something else but I also want to be on good terms with my family. I feel so lonely. And I always care about what others think. I just dont know. I need some help/guidance.
So background ... I'm 15 and been having struggles of anxiety and what I believe to be depression (immense sadness, irritation, and so on) I have always been really shy and my parents are being really cautious about COVID so is really affecting me socially.
I get upset or mad really easy. I can usually hide it but when I cant my parents make it a huge deal (like emotions are poison ruining the planet or something) For example, today I couldn't take it anymore and I started crying I stopped pretty quickly but they did not handle it good. They made it a huge deal like I try to cry and ruin the day for them. Also, I recently told them in a letter how I was feeling mentally and they did the oh we are here for you thing but it does not feel like they are. Its straining. I just want things to go back to the way they were before COVID. And i dont know what to do, I want relief mentally but the meditation my parents were suggesting did not work, journaling did some but not enough. I feel that I need something else but I also want to be on good terms with my family. I feel so lonely. And I always care about what others think. I just dont know. I need some help/guidance.
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