I had just found out as a psychology student that BPD is the worst psychological pain and emotional pain, it's like feeling all intense emotions at once. I have that, and other terrible issues and traumas. Can you imagine what's that like when you also come from a different culture as well as dysfunctional, toxic family with NO support???? The only time I felt supported was my my guidance counselor. I am soph in college now, so I left highschool long time ago. It makes me wonder: simple interactions with people who I once developed a connection can go a long way in alleviating 80% of my distress. It's so simple, anything small that people show me is meaningful. It makes wonder why they probably wouldn't bother to interact with me taking into consideration their boundaries and guidelines, etc. Why aren't people nice to me if they know the high levels of pain BPD causes someone (not even close to what depression feels like)? For instance, that alone can make a huge difference. If you know someone struggles like, are you going to try to convince me that a simple deed and action of kindness is difficult to do? Or that it crosses boundaries? The answer is easy, it means they don't care. And if that's the case, then why not freakin admit it for gods sake. How can you claim to care about someone when you know you can do something to alleviate their pain (when you know they have BPD diagnosis) but choose not to give a little bit of your support in a way that doesn't uhhh cross boundaries?
I hope you are understanding what I am saying...
I hope you are understanding what I am saying...
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