Several months ago, I left my parents' home to live on the couch of a relative (with not a lot of space or privacy - not like I had much of either with my parents) so I could eventually be able to find an apartment of my own and live independently. My reasons for doing this are to escape the tension between me and certain family members (one of them physically assaulted me) and to create a safe place to transition and be queer (I've come out to nobody and don't plan to until I no longer rely on my family financially).
Since then, I've done everything to try and get a job and save up for an apartment. I suffer from insomnia, anxiety, and depression and this has impacted my sleeping habits and the types of jobs I can do. I have trouble focusing and have procrastinated on important things like job searching. I've tried looking into vouchers and welfare services to no avail. Even though I've managed to get myself together and am now working vigorously to improve my situation, my stress continues to build every day with the fear that I may never leave. My thoughts are getting darker and I'm getting more desperate. My worsening gender dysphoria (almost every one in my life still calls me by my former name and uses the wrong pronouns to address me) doesn't help either.
At this moment, I'm still unemployed and my current savings are running low. How can I be patient without this increasing anxiety or falling into a depression?
Since then, I've done everything to try and get a job and save up for an apartment. I suffer from insomnia, anxiety, and depression and this has impacted my sleeping habits and the types of jobs I can do. I have trouble focusing and have procrastinated on important things like job searching. I've tried looking into vouchers and welfare services to no avail. Even though I've managed to get myself together and am now working vigorously to improve my situation, my stress continues to build every day with the fear that I may never leave. My thoughts are getting darker and I'm getting more desperate. My worsening gender dysphoria (almost every one in my life still calls me by my former name and uses the wrong pronouns to address me) doesn't help either.
At this moment, I'm still unemployed and my current savings are running low. How can I be patient without this increasing anxiety or falling into a depression?
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