College is definitely a lot more difficult than I thought. The work is fine, but the issue is money. All my friends talk about money as if it is not of importance, and I don't want to sound rude so I bite my tongue. I want nothing more than to scream at them that they should be happy their tuition is paid off. It is one less stress, though I know that they might have other issues in their lives as well. I just can't help but feel irritated when they complain about their parents not giving them money, or not buying them a new phone. Most of the time their phones are perfectly fine, but they only want a new one because it will "look" cooler. I guess that is a pet peeve of mine.
I don't know, just scraping by is a scary situation because of the fact that I don't want to have to take a break. If I take a break I am scared I won't come back. It happened to my brother, and he is currently not working or going to school. I want to work hard and make things happen, but my mind gets overwhelmed too easily. I'm already working two jobs and a full time student. I might have to get another job since I am paying for college mostly on my own. My parents can help a little bit though, and I am so grateful to them. This is why I am not as scared as I usually would be. I do have a support system if anything should happen, at least.
I am not really looking for any advice (unless anyone wants to offer some up), I just wanted a place to vent because if I ever said this in real life I would feel whiny and childish. My problems are difficult but a part of me just tells me to suck it up. I can't really do it anymore, though and if I vented to my family they would feel guilty for not being able to help more. Last thing I would want is to make them work too hard. Even if they can only manage a little, it helps me a lot.
So yeah, thanks for reading, this did help a little since I got to admit one of my biggest fears without anyone really laughing or judging.
I don't know, just scraping by is a scary situation because of the fact that I don't want to have to take a break. If I take a break I am scared I won't come back. It happened to my brother, and he is currently not working or going to school. I want to work hard and make things happen, but my mind gets overwhelmed too easily. I'm already working two jobs and a full time student. I might have to get another job since I am paying for college mostly on my own. My parents can help a little bit though, and I am so grateful to them. This is why I am not as scared as I usually would be. I do have a support system if anything should happen, at least.
I am not really looking for any advice (unless anyone wants to offer some up), I just wanted a place to vent because if I ever said this in real life I would feel whiny and childish. My problems are difficult but a part of me just tells me to suck it up. I can't really do it anymore, though and if I vented to my family they would feel guilty for not being able to help more. Last thing I would want is to make them work too hard. Even if they can only manage a little, it helps me a lot.
So yeah, thanks for reading, this did help a little since I got to admit one of my biggest fears without anyone really laughing or judging.
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