so basically whenever i get slightly angry or anything like that, my friends will kind of just smile and giggle because "i'm funny when i'm angry" and that just kinda drives me away from them. i don't ever vent to anyone because of this ( esp to my parents ) so i just kind of bottle everything up. two weeks ago someone that i know , let's call him jake 2 of my other friends and i were at jake's backyard and jake has a dog. i have made it very clear that i have a huge phobia of dogs esp dogs that can bark really loudly and jake decides to bring the dog outside even after his dad confirmed the dog won't be outside. so there i was in the trampoline hiding from the dog covering my ears ( since that's what i do in stressful situations ) yelling at jake to bring the dog back inside while my other 2 friends were smiling and laughing about it. i quickly left afterwards making up an excuse and that really made me question my relationship with them.
i guess kind of unrelated but my friends ALWAYS put their problems onto me and vent to me without asking. one of my friends who i dont speak to that much anymore used to vent to me everyday last year and i was understanding they had just gotten out of a toxic relationship but i was going through my own things as well like mental health, family, etc. and it drove me to harming myself and just made me reach my limit ( i don't self harm anymore ) but stuff like this still happens. if i wanna say something to my friends they just don't really listen to me and i just end up bottling everything up. im not sure if im over dramatic for the story in the first paragraph or not though.
sorry this is such a huge mess lmao i'm not used to opening up like this, even if it's anonymous. anyways thanks for reading
i guess kind of unrelated but my friends ALWAYS put their problems onto me and vent to me without asking. one of my friends who i dont speak to that much anymore used to vent to me everyday last year and i was understanding they had just gotten out of a toxic relationship but i was going through my own things as well like mental health, family, etc. and it drove me to harming myself and just made me reach my limit ( i don't self harm anymore ) but stuff like this still happens. if i wanna say something to my friends they just don't really listen to me and i just end up bottling everything up. im not sure if im over dramatic for the story in the first paragraph or not though.
sorry this is such a huge mess lmao i'm not used to opening up like this, even if it's anonymous. anyways thanks for reading
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