My dad is abusing me for what I am.

[Guest]

Hello, I am a girl, 13 year old and I have 4 siblings. I am the youngest. Well, I hate my mother because she left me and my one brother alone and poor with my father. My father would be her 'sugar daddy'. My father was very rich. My mother left him with all his money and ran away. Police never found her again. The 3 sisters are from a different wife, that now has divorced with my dad. Well, the 1 of the sisters left him too because he would force her from 12-23 years old to become a singer. She loved singing but she didn't want to have a singing career-job. So, she left him at 24 year old with her boyfriend to Germany. The other daughters are the oldest. They got married and they was my fathers 'favourites'. Let's talk about me. When I was small, my mother would go to.. Sorry- stripping clubs and be a stripper. She would get money and.. With boys.. My dad would be VERY mad at her and she just kept on going. I remember once she came home drunk saying that she's pregnant. WE COULDN'T BELIEVE IT! She, and pregnant from someone else? UNBELIEVABLE! I was 4 years old at the time. My mother ran away when I was 5 with the baby in her stomach. My dad had no money, we lived eating 1-minute soup and junkfood. My dad tried finding a job.. It was a Singer at a Casino.. This was when my father started playing in the casino and coming home at 5+ am. Me and my brother didn't go to school, I know... But my dad would say that we are VERY sick and that we can't go to school.. Lost 2 years of school. At age of 8 my dad started hooking up with new Ladies, trying to make us happy with a new mother. This didn't work but he would atleast have someone to talk to/have fun. As I was 8, as I said before.. He made me sing. I really LOVED singing,! But.. The same thing as my sister happened.. I talked to him about jobs.. I really wanted to be an actress. I convinced him that If I become an actress I can also sing. He swallowed that lie for some months. He started making me wear dresses and go to the Casino.. TO THE CASINO. And SING... The Casino owners had no problem with a KID in their own 18+ store... I can't believe it. I kept on doing this until 12 years old. My dad started calling me a wh*re for being like my mother. I did NOTHING! he would just say: You are a b**, exactly like your mother, WANNA GO TO HER, THEN GO! I felt very depressed.. Sometimes he would hit me. By the way, he doesn't drink alcohol.

[2NDFLOOR]

Thank you for sharing this. I hope you realize how brave you are for putting parts of your life story out there with so many details. It sounds like you definitely have had a lot go on in your life for being only 13 years old. I'm sorry to hear about some of your experiences. I am hoping that you have a support system outside of your parents...possibly extended family, friends, school? You should speak with a trusted adult or with a counselor in school about what your dad has done to you.You still have 5 years ahead until you are an adult and have opportunities to start creating your own life for yourself that you deserve. Until then you need to get the appropriate help. Please call or text us here at the 2NDFLOOR Youth Helpline and we can better help guide you. We are here 24/7 at 888-222-2228. Please further reach out to someone,

[Guest]

Same my dad abused me when i was frowning me a cross the room and brining me and cutting me and now I

[2NDFLOOR]

If you are being abused or neglected you can can report this by calling the hotline at 1-877-NJ ABUSE (652-2873), DCP&P. If you need to talk about this or anything please call us at 888-222-2228, we are here 24/7. You are not alone, there are people who can help, please reach out to someone today.