I've always been a happy person, but lately in these last couple months I want to die. My mom's been depressed, my dad chose my stepmom instead of me, and my sister has been really mean to me lately. I'm not going to go into the details but today especially has been hard. She doesn't understand that what she says to me really hits me hard. I haven't seen my dad since December. We had a fight and both said some things we probably now regret. Tomorrow is his birthday. But I want to see him and I don't. My mom has just been a ball of depression. She is sad and tired all the time. I have a few friends, but they don't like me. I have really bad social anxiety, so they bond and I watch alone. My only friend and frankly person who likes me is my cat.
I've never thought about self-harm but now it doesn't seem so impossible. I'm now thinking of taking pills, all of them. I just can't do it anymore. I'm so alone and so sad. Everyone around me is sad. I just don't want to do life anymore. We don't have money for a therapist, so I can't do that. I'm just so over everything. I just want to leave everything behind and just be with my cat.
I've never thought about self-harm but now it doesn't seem so impossible. I'm now thinking of taking pills, all of them. I just can't do it anymore. I'm so alone and so sad. Everyone around me is sad. I just don't want to do life anymore. We don't have money for a therapist, so I can't do that. I'm just so over everything. I just want to leave everything behind and just be with my cat.
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