So many people say that there are people out there who are willing to help, and actually care -- and so many resources to tap into, yet when it comes to me and as alienated as I am as is, nobody really is willing to help me. It's so hypocritical of me to say this when I am myself a hotline counselor volunteer and been so for a while, and should no matter, yet I just can't seem to see the "help and support" that people claim exists. For one, in my textline service that I volunteer at, I keep wondering if there's anyone there willing to be of a support, someone that will listen to me with my own identity (meaning not as a person texting in)-- but I don't know if that's possible or how to reach out to my own community or peers. I don't feel like anyone will want to "support" me. The service by the way is Crisis Textline P.S and I don't want it to affect my professionality -- but I am needing support myself and it's a bit weird for me to be on the other side now; the "helpee".
I already have such amazing coping tools, but you also have to understand that a lot of the times when my heart is aching for love, support and belonging, coping skills isn't going to do it. It's like trying to help a deaf person see better to navigate the world more clearly, I'm hoping you can empathize my frustration here. SEcond of all, while yes, I have a therapist, I'm also hoping I can get an understanding that therapy is 45 min once a week, and there goes a lot into it. It's more important what I do and how I reach out in between those sessions, so when people refer me back to therapy, that defeats the whole purpose because the goal should be to focus on other things in therapy. Also, emphasizng how misleading it is to say, "there's so many supports out there" if I am always going to get referred to my therapist whenever I reach out to those who told me to in the first place. All these frustrations came from things Ive heard so please address them, and Im going this is a place I can feel heard.
I feel like everyone is setting me up where they tell me to reach out when I struggle, suddenly when I gather up the courage to do so, they belittle me and are like but coping skills (although 90% of my problem is lack of support in my life) and right when I need help, no one is there as promised. So when I start to bring down because of me feeling neglected and like Ive been mislead, everyone starts to come at me to act like the samaritan or for service to make profit of my pain.
Why should suicide not be an option? Besides the fact that you are told it shouldn't.
I already have such amazing coping tools, but you also have to understand that a lot of the times when my heart is aching for love, support and belonging, coping skills isn't going to do it. It's like trying to help a deaf person see better to navigate the world more clearly, I'm hoping you can empathize my frustration here. SEcond of all, while yes, I have a therapist, I'm also hoping I can get an understanding that therapy is 45 min once a week, and there goes a lot into it. It's more important what I do and how I reach out in between those sessions, so when people refer me back to therapy, that defeats the whole purpose because the goal should be to focus on other things in therapy. Also, emphasizng how misleading it is to say, "there's so many supports out there" if I am always going to get referred to my therapist whenever I reach out to those who told me to in the first place. All these frustrations came from things Ive heard so please address them, and Im going this is a place I can feel heard.
I feel like everyone is setting me up where they tell me to reach out when I struggle, suddenly when I gather up the courage to do so, they belittle me and are like but coping skills (although 90% of my problem is lack of support in my life) and right when I need help, no one is there as promised. So when I start to bring down because of me feeling neglected and like Ive been mislead, everyone starts to come at me to act like the samaritan or for service to make profit of my pain.
Why should suicide not be an option? Besides the fact that you are told it shouldn't.
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